today has not been a good day...

stash's dad died today.

i wish i could of been stronger for him, but i cried anyway...

i hope stash comes back soon...



i need to go get my antenna installed for my XM radio. i'm quite excited...hehe this was an awesome christmas this year! (thanks great-grandma)

the new greenday and good charlotte cds are AWESOME..

but then again, everythign is awesome right now...well almost everything
i want to say that i miss you, but i know you don't want to go there...

i need to let go, move on, get over it...but its tough...

and thats an understatement.

Move in day is in T-9 days, 22 hours, and 19 mins..

with a three minute margin of error, as always


I can not wait to go back to school... i think that this term is going to be even more fun than the last!!!
My list of things that i want to accomplish this upcoming term:

1. actually do all of my homework, especially calc!
2. party just a teensy-bit list ( i already know that this is something i'm not going to follow through on...)
3. join some clubs (such as SWE, ASME, etc)
4. look into my dual degree? (go Imaginary Engineering!)
5. find some place to live next term... (Michael and Ian sounds like the best bet...and by Ian i mean Cornelius from Nome)
6. [insert thing i forgot here]

i have so many plans already for this term...

I (kinda) got invited to Ohio for a night-or-two the 1st actual weekend after classes, and i really wanted to go...but i kinda forgot about monster jam...but then again, if we don't get tickets, then it won't matter!

speaking of monster jam...that is so much fun, and the guy who drives Blue Thunder (a ford truck of course!) is HOT!!!

speaking of HOT guys, Laura and I have been hitting on a very hot friend of stash's...im horrible i know...but stash does know about it!

and no, im not doing the passive-aggressive thing, i just don't feel like going back and fixing all of my capitalization mistakes...


i just don't know what to say...

now i guess there IS something i regret...
only 3 more days of work...i know it was 4 awhile ago...but i have to work until january 5th now... oh well...

found a piece of steel in my hand yesterday...turns out that wasn't a bloodblister... oops

roads suck today, so be careful everyone!


well back to skool in T-16 days (approx)

its sad how much i'm looking forward to this, lol. but then again, most people probably are.

i think i want to go somewhere for spring break this year. i won't get to go on our family vacation, so i'll either have to save up enough money or talk my parents into paying for at least part of it... any ideas where we all should go? i was thinking Virginia Beach, but that'd be alot more fun once i'm old enough to drink and go out to the bars (...legally that is...) anyone who wants to go could go... c'mon it'll be fun.

i also need to find someone to live with next year, cuz there is no way in hell i'm commuting from home! haha

but yah my birthday is in 7 months, 3 days, 9 hours, and 25 minutes... give or take a few minutes... i'll be 19, so i say canada anyone?

i love all of you...

oh yah i almost forgot... Amanda and I were looking up pictures of the FIJI guys last night. They are definitely HOT!!! lol i was telling someone else (also from KU) about that and they though we meant fiji as in the country, not fiji as in the fraternity... lol that made my day


ok guys, since i just wrote a scholarship essay about this, i thought i'd post (an edited) copy of what i had to say...

my ode to guy friends (not the real title, but you get the point)

"Throughout my whole life, most of my friends have been guys, we just seem to get along better, fight less, and generally just be better friends. Most of the other girls that I know are mean and petty (or so it seems to me). They hold grudges, fight amongst one another, and just aren’t really that nice to each other.
Guy friends are friends of a different sort, when I am with them they treat me like one of the guys. To them we're all the same and everything is forgiven and forgotten. They don't feel slighted if I forget to call them, or if I don't invite them to go somewhere with me. I wouldn't trade them for any other friend in the world"

just thought you guys might like that...


ok i seem to have this problem...although this one is a nice kind of problem :D

i like all these older guys... they are pretty cute, but the ones at work (especially) are all way to old for me, way way way to old for me... lol i still flirt though...

so yup ranging from all you seniors at KU to the pipefitters and electricians here at the plant...thanks :D
hey everybody...

since today officially sucks, im just going to post about 15 redneck jokes (its ok, im allowed to my bf is a redneck...majorly!)

you might be a redneck if...
...you have ever valet parked a snow plow
...taking your girlfriend on a cruise meant circling the Dairy Queen
...you can't visit your relatives without getting mud on your tires
...you've ever been blacklisted by a bowling alley
...you've ever had to turn around your pickup truck because of bridge clearance restrictions
...you drive across town to see a car wreck
...you have more electronice equipment in your truck than your house
...your favorite t-shirt is declared offensive in at least 13 states
...you are driving a car with no original body parts
...you quit your job cuz "deer season is a-fixin' to start"
...you've ever been hunting on a tractor
...you've ever laid rubber while traveling in a funeral procession
...your tires are worth more than your truck
...you've ever had a conversation about truck tires that has lasted more than an hour
...the hood of your truck is higher than the roof of your house


in other news, school starts up again on the 10th. thank god for that. i miss all my friends from there that i haven't seen in awhile now. and hey Aeren, if you ever come back up to KU, you should stop in an say hi! lol

i miss you boys...

love you all,


four more days of work! I can't wait to go back to school. I miss all my friends so much and I can't wait to see them all again.

i'm such a dork, i actually enjoy going to school..haha...i love you all...

you might be a redneck if...
...you think the last words to the national anthem are "gentlemen, start your engines"
...you've ever stood in line to have your picture taken with a freak of nature
...you've ever been to a wedding reception at a waffle house
and finally
...you think the police can't see you because you truck is painted camouflage


my haircut

what do y'all think?

Sorry about that last post guys. There were/are alot of things going on and i was feeling a little overwhelmed and confused. Things have gotten better, but not entirely. Oh well, guess i just need to get my head on straight..

speaking of which...

have you ever heard anyone use that phrase before? I mean look at it "get my head on straight" have you ever seen someone whose head wasn't on straight. Do they get to take it off and readjust it? lol

lol if you think about it, alot of things don't make sense...

you might be a redneck if...

-You consider a six-pack and a bug-zapper high-quality entertainment.
-The neighbors started a petition over your Christmas lights.
-You've been too drunk to fish.
-You think that John Deere Green, Ford Blue, and Primer Gray are the three of the primary colors.


i don't know what to think...

i thought you liked me, that there was something there...

maybe there was, but i doubt there is anymore...

i know you're busy, but there is more to it than that...

you used to call me late at night and i'd talk to you for hours...

now i'm lucky to talk to you for a few minutes when i get ahold of you...

i don't expect you drop anything or everything for me...

i don't expect anything at all...

i guess i hoped that what i shared with you meant something...

guess i'm just another girl after all...

what did i expect?


Sorry all, i have been busy for once at work (that or without internet) so i haven't posted in a few days. I'm still working on getting a picture of my haircut for all of you...

but anyway, yah tuesday was interesting... i worked 5:00 am-1:3o pm...it was actually kinda nice. Then i had to run errands for 'rango. well errand... but still

dance team show is thursday (next week) i can't wait! the girls are going to be sooo awesome... you know, its amazing how many different dances a group of only 14 girls can come up with. When i was on the team, we always had at least 20 dances... awesome eh?

i have a problem...but eh, i'll work it out...


So i got my haircut...i like it, lots of highlights this time, hope other people like it too...actually it isn't that much shorter than it used to be lol

do you love me?


So I was kinda lonely yesterday, not sure why... which ended up in my calling random people to see if they wanted to come over, and then calling a certain random someone at least 3 times leaving some pretty pathetic messages that probably sounded something like this:

"hey its me, I'm bored and just thought i'd give you a call, im driving home, well i was at home, then i left, and now im on the way home again and i'd ask you what you were doing, but its kinda hard to have a coversation with you voicemail cuz it doesn't answer back, and well i guess just call me later."

"hey its kim again, just wanted to see if you wanted to come over and hang out or something, no one's home and i'm kinda bored. ummm just call me back later then i guess as long as it isn't too late, but i'll probably be up until 10ish...sooo yah"

"hey its me, i'm kinda lonely so i thought i'd see if you want to come over, but i guess not its getting kinda late, so i guess i'll just talk to you tomorrow..."

pathetic eh? so needless to say i did nothing yesterday. i talked to Clint yesterday online, then i got bored so i went to the library (i know im such a dork) then i got home and read a book and a half, had tomato soup and grilled cheese for dinner since my parents were gone at my bro's wrestling meet (hmmm hot guys in tight clothes...hmmm) then took a bath and went to bed.. lame lame lame...

so i've made a vow not to call my certain random someone until i can control myself, not leave pathetic messages, and convince myself of the fact that i don't need to talk to them every day... or before i go to bed... or in the middle of the night... or on my way home from work... or on the way to work at 5:30 in the morning cuz i am their wake up call... etc etc etc... they can call me for once...

on yah i left them two text messages too...i gotta get this under control...

love me always, cuz i love all of you...except for you and you and you

PS- oh yah i almost forgot to mention this... you'll never guess who i got a phone call from last night after i got out of the bathtub and while i was on the phone with the boy?? yup thats right KYLE! i have to say, even though we're working/worked things out, i never expected to have him call me, at least not yet...hmmm wow


ok...so apparently i'm going to post at least once a day, well days that i'm at work at least.

OMG am i actually using punctuation? must be that work thing rubbing off on me, cuz i never normally do. Actually if i think about it, it has been easier to write emails and such without having to think about putting in the proper capital letters, punctuation, and spellings of words. damn, whats happening.

eh oh well...


i've been hyper and tired beyond belief all at the same time lately. How, i have no idea because logically i shouldn't be able to be both at the same time, but since when am i ever logical? exactly...

DANCE TEAM SHOW DECEMBER 16... well i think thats when it is anyway... i haven't seen the girls dance since the homecoming game, and they were really good then so i can't wait to see what the show brings!
you know... i really miss dance, as much as i complained about it sometimes, i really miss it. Maybe not the 5 practices a week plus studio classes once a week, but still. I wish i could find another studio in Flint, because i can drive up to flint for a 6 0'clock class from work every week, but i can't drive to LO every week when i'm at skool. that sucks though, cuz i really liked my old studio LA dance.. oh well, guess i'll have to see what i can do!

i love you all, except for you and you and you...


today has been full of grrrs....


First my boss was supposed to leave me a schedule so i know which days i have to work 4pm-12:30pm, which days to work 10pm-6:30am, and which days to work my normal time 6:30am-3 pm...but she didn't...grrr

then the power goes out when i am in the middle of working on something, which i of course forgot to save...grrrr...not all the power though, just half of my office...grrrrr.

then i called to get service for our plot copier, but the number's out of service ... grrrrrrrrrrr.... erg...

lastly, i feel like throwing up, i'd blame 'rango for getting me sick, but i only hung out with him yesterday, so its too soon to be sick...double grrrr....

but my big boss did buy us all pizza....yay...not grrr...yay!

what else is going to happen?
well well well...

i actually did some real work at work yesterday, if you can believe it. lol it was amazing!


i've had a lot on my mind lately. And its making me kinda insecure about things, for some odd reason... hmmmmmm

wonder when my screwed up schedule starts....


I feel bad for my Dad. Yesterday was his birthday, and he found out he might have to have surgery today. Two years ago he had a detached retina. They weren't sure how it happened, but they did surgery on it, made it all better, and hopefully prevented it from happening again. Unfortunately it happened again. He has a tear in the the retina of his right eye again. He has to go to the eye doctor this morning and they will decide what, if anything, they are going to do. I sure hope everything turns out ok...

update: well my dad called me earlier, they did have to do a surgery but they were able to do the laser one. So now he is fine and at home again. I'm glad everything turned out ok!


i should really stop the survey thing, but they're so stupid that they're fun! anyhoo

sometimes i'm so immature i can't believe it. heh, but sometimes its called for. hehe

i'm sure that none of you really want to know this, but i feel like sharing anyway, especially since there are only so many times that i can share with the boy, i don't think he really cares at this point.. so yah, i bought a new bra yesterday, its pretty i love it. Its one of the victoria secret's very sexy collection no padding push-up ones (i need all the help i can get, lmao) its black and kinda lacy and see-through and such... i like it... as some of you know, for all the guys who mistakenly opened the wrong drawer in my dorm room, i like bras, especially pretty ones that are all different colors, so i have alot..hehe.. i'm sure you'll all love that visual in your head.

Aren't you glad i shared? leave me a comment and let me know!!

on to the survey...

First real kiss: in front of my front door
First job: Ford motor company co-op
First screen name: cutiebug
First self-purchased album: can't even remember
First funeral: my nana's
First pet: Kitty and max.
First piercing: ears at age 8
First true love: i'd like to think i'm in love...
First big trip: does alabama count?
Last big car ride: this morning on the way to work almost an hour! otherwise going to Rockford to see Pinky, Noel, and Adam
Last kiss: hmmm, saturday i believe...thats way to long ago if i do say so myself
Last good cry: not since that night after the party @ the green house
Last movie seen: elf and some vin diesel thing
Last beverage drank: water and faygo red pop
Last food consumed: sprees and the yucky macaroni and cheese i had for lunch
Last phone call: called the boy during lunch, and my boss called a little bit ago
Last TV show watched: i watched drawn together last night at 1 am
Last shoes worn: i've got work shoes on now, ugh, i'd give anything for my chucks or my docs
Last CD played: linkin park-meteora
Last item bought: ritz-bits, goldfish, and redpop
Last disappointment: thats for me to know
Last soda drank: faygo redpop
Last ice cream eaten: vanilla
Last shirt worn: at the moment, pink sweater...last t-shirt, black and green dance clinic shirt


LAYER ONE: On The Outside
- Name: Kim
- Nickname: kimkat, kk, kimie, KP, ki23m, etc..
- Birth date: 7/26
- Birthplace: Royal Oak, MI
- Current Location: home/DT&D until january 10th, then KU
- Eye Color: Brown
- Hair Color: 'Dirty' blonde
- Height: 5'10"
- Righty or Lefty: righty
- Zodiac Sign: leo

LAYER TWO: On The Inside
- Your heritage: German, english, yugoslavian
- The shoes you wore today: brown doc martens at the moment, converses when i get home
- Who you look like: mom
- Your weakness: kitties, sweet talk, caffeine, cuddling
- Your fears: irrational things
- Your perfect pizza: ham and mushrooms, lots of mushrooms
- Goal you'd like to achieve: making other people happy at all costs

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
- Your most overused phrase on AIM: omg, lol
- Your thoughts first waking up: 4 am is too early for thoughts
- Your best physical feature: eyes? i dunno someone else would have to answer that
- Your bedtime: during workterm:9pm-ish during schoolterm:1-4am
- Your most missed memory: n/a

- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
- McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
- Single or group dates: Single
- Adidas or Nike: nike
- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate/vanilla swirl
- Cappuccino or coffee: mountain dew

- Smoke: haven't yet.
- Cuss: most definitely
- Sing: never!
- Have a crush: yes, always
- Think you've been in love: i'd like to think so...
- Like high school: i thought i did, then i got to college
- Want to get married: eventually
- Believe in yourself: not usually
- Get motion sickness: nope
- Think you're attractive: nope
- Think you're a health freak: definitely not!
- Get along with your parents: yes
- Like thunderstorms: they're fun, and make things interesting..lol
- Play an instrument: used to play clarinet, alto clarinet, and bass clarinet. can kinda play piano (not very well)

LAYER SIX: In the past month...
- Drank alcohol: if you know me, then you know the answer to that..lol
- Smoked: nope
- Done a drug: only caffeine
- Gone to the mall: probably
- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no....
- Eaten sushi: no, ewww
- Been on stage: not since june
- Gone skating: nope too cold to rollerblade
- Gone skinny dipping: not yet ;)
- Dyed your hair: nope, i need to again though
- Stolen anything: only kisses

- Played a game that required removal of clothing: still need to do that, strip go fish anyone?
- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: again, if you know me you know that answer (lol)
- Been caught "doing something": hahahaha no comment
- Gotten beaten up: only by my bro
- Shoplifted: nope!

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older

- Age you hope to be married: not for awhile
- Numbers and Names of Children: kids? AHHH
- Describe your dream wedding: ...
- How do you want to die: quickly
- What do you want to be when you grow up: some kind of engineer/biochemist (yah im a nerd i know)
- What country would you most like to visit? italy

LAYER NINE: In a partner
- Best eye color: depends on the person
- Hair color: same as above
- short or long hair: short hair...(gotta love my guys)
- Height: taller than me...
- Weight: porportionate to their height
- Best articles of clothing: nothing!

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...
- Number of people I could trust with my life: eh, my guys won't let anything too bad to happen to me heh
- Number of CDs that I own: more than 60
- Number of piercings: 4 (2 in each ear) wish it was 7
- Number of tattoos: none...yet
- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: a couple...
- Number of things in my past that I regret: i don't really regret anything, i probably should, but i don't. guess we'll see


if things get anymore confusing i think my brain is going to implode. yes implode... not explode

if you can't deal with/don't like it then too damn bad

if you don't give a shit about what happens to me in my pathetic life, then someone finally has the right idea...


"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams"
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everythings all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I walk alone, I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone!


I had an awesome weekend

just thought you might like to know...

so yes, details... I went to Rockford on friday to go and see Noel and Pinky and go to the Wailers concert. I gotta tell you, it was better than i thought it was going to be! turns out pinky lives in Waterford, not that far away from me! but anyway, we went to the intersection to see the wailers, hung out in the ghetto lounge for a bit, ended up back at Noel's house. Noel, Pinky, Adam, and me drove together, and we met another of their friends @the concert. I don't know where Adam disappeared off to after we got back though. We were going to have a bonfire, but we were all to cold and tired (it was 2 am by this point) so we had a fire inside instead and started watching the fifth element (i love that movie) i started falling asleep part way through it, Pinky DID fall asleep and Noel was getting sleepy, so we let Pinky stay asleep and the rest of us fell asleep in Noel's room. After all of us went to bed (well except for Pinky) no one was tired anymore so we ended up staying awake until about 7 am. then we got up at 10...

I had so much fun though, and i really missed Noel and Pinky, Noel especially. hopefully i'll get to see him again sometime, otherwise guess i'll have to wait until school starts!

love all of you,



i was so tired yesterday! got up at 3:30 am, left for work at 4:30 am, got to work at 5:30 am. worked until 3:00pm, then went to scott's house. left scott's house at about 6:45 pm, got home at 8 pm. fell asleep on the couch at about 8:30 pm, got woken up at 9 pm, went to bed. got woken up by my cell phone at 9:30 pm, looked at it but didn't answer it, went back to sleep and didn't wake up until 4:17 am when my alarm went off. turned off my alarm clock, went back to sleep, then woke up at 4:30 am to get ready for work. left at 5:23 am, then got to work at 6:16 am. now its 7:17 am, i'm working by myself today, and have nothing to do (at the moment)

but enough of the running commentary!

rant time...

you know what i dislike? i don't like how keyboard makers put the apostrophe RIGHT next to the enter key. i always hit the wrong key, always! for example:
if i want to type the word don't
it comes out
and that isn't right. oooh it bugs me so much! why couldn't they put it somewhere else?

does that bother anyone else?

wow, that was such a fake rant. that really does bother me, i just can't rant about it...

so yah going to grand rapids on friday. we're going to the wailers concert, by we i mean me, Noel, Pinky, and a bunch of other people. after the concert we're all going to spend the night at Noel's house. i still can't believe that my parents agreed to this! i'm sooo excited though!!! i can't wait.

on another note, i'm confused. i'm not sure where things are going, i don't really know whats going on, and i don't know how much longer it can...

i hate being confused...


go visit my new "check me out sites" they're nice!!

anyhoo...i miss you! all of you, well most of you...lol

stupid server...grrrrrrrrrr


is it bad that i keep thinking about milk duds?

anyhoo...yah i'm bored OUT OF MY MIND

there's been a lot on my mind lately and thats not a good thing. i just need to unplug my brain, put it in a drawer and lock it away until January 10th (first day of classes) when school starts again.

speaking of January 10th, thats out three year aniversary (now thats a long ass time) ain't that a kick in the teeth?

i bought the sims 2, lots of fun, not quite as addicting yet as the original though.

well im off to go measure oil tanks.

i love all of you, except for you, you, and you


"Out Of Control"
I've done everything as you say
I've followed your rules without question
I thought it would help me see things clearly
But instead of helping me to see
I look around and it's like I'm blinded
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
Cause I don't know
If I can trust you
I don't understand what you want from me
I feel like I'm spinning out of control
Try to focus but everything's twisted
And all along I thought you would be there
(Thought you would be there)
To let me know I'm not alone
But in fact that's exactly what I was
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
Cause I don't know
If I can trust you
All of the things you've said to me
I may never know the answer
To this endless mystery
Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
Is it a mystery?
Is it a mystery?
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control...
Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
Cause I don't know
If I can trust you
All the things you've said to me
And I may never know the answer
To this endless mystery
Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control


Blah blah blah. I feel like doing nothing, all I want to do is sleep. Boring, I know.

I haven't been home a single night this week; Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday I was with Stash, Tuesday I was at Scott's, and Thursday I was at Jason's. I had fun all week though!! Scott's coming up here on Tuesday this week, should be interesting he's never been to my house or met my parents before... oh well

Mark Ridley's Comedy Castle on Friday...I'm excited!


So i've been at work for a week. It was my first audit, and there were three going on at once.

oh well, i got a half hour of over time in...woohoo...

on another note, i was invited to go to a party up at WMU on friday, but my daddy said no..it isa long drive though... but i did want to go...

on yet another note, i miss all my friends from school... very very much...

i don't even know how to get in touch with Jason...oh well..i'll see him once school starts again... I miss everyone except for Arango...i get to see him just about everyday at work, so thats all good.

so all you Skool people, if you know the cell number, hit it up, otherwise drop my an email of catch me online or something, cuz I MISS YOU!!!



that calc exam is going to kill me. Hopefully econ will go better.

I move out tomorrow, i'm really going to miss everyone. I've made a lot of friends up here, and lost a few along the way. but thats my own fault, i take full responsibility for it all, no one else to blame except for me.

seems weird moving out after 11 weeks of school, going back to work on monday, everyone else is still getting started. Weird huh?


All the times
That I've cried
All this wasted
It's all inside
And I feel
All this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie
Here in bed
All alone
I can't mend
But I feel
Tomorrow wil be OK


"hey we were on a quest..."
i love adventures to meijer @ 1 in the morning. especially for the reason we went!


dundee was fun too, even when they moved our tent, while we were in it..oh i was pissed at first, but then after awhile it was funny...

here's our tent after they redecorated it...i especially like the caution tape head bands


Female Engineers...
File their nails with a Leatherman.
Make jewelry out of wire, resistors, transistors, and chips.
Don't think of male engineers as dorks.
Refer to impotence as system failure.
Would rather discuss the strength of a bridge than the strength of their relationship.
Know why a Dickies purse is cool.
Think tools are romantic gifts.
Have thought about re-engineering a bra.
Have tried to make a bra out of duct tape.
Read Popular Mechanics instead of Cosmo for fashion tips.
Are the only ones smart enough to enter into a field that is 95% male.
Have used nail polish remover for more than just removing nail polish.
Know the value of hairspray's flammable properties.


so yah...

gave myself a concussion yesterday morning. if you really want to know how it happened, then email me or leave me a comment or something and i'll let you know. so anyway, stayed up all night because of that, give or take 16 minutes.

tonight i plan on staying up all night if i can get someone to stay up with me. then tomorrow i'm giving blood @ 4:45. fun stuff. actually giving blood is fun, maybe i'm just weird though.

might go out afterwards, but have to be careful, wouldn't want to pass out in strange places now would we?

oh yah by the way, im going to find three random blogs that i like every week or so, actuall more like whenever i remember, go check them out!


Engineering jokes are awesome. Don't you just love stupid jokes, sometimes cheesier really is better. On another note 10 school days left. yes 10, aren't you jealous?


is today over yet?

i got written up, yay for us!

since i like this joke i thought id share with you...

An engineer was crossing a road one day when a frog called out to him and said, "If you kiss me, I'll turn into a beautiful princess. He bent over, picked up the frog and put it in his pocket. The frog spoke up again and said, "If you kiss me and turn me back into a beautiful princess, I will stay with you for one week." The engineer took the frog out of his pocket, smiled at it and returned it to the pocket. The frog then cried out, "If you kiss me and turn me back into a princess, I'll stay with you and do ANYTHING you want." Again the engineer took the frog out, smiled at it and put it back into his pocket. Finally, the frog asked, "What is the matter? I've told you I'm a beautiful princess, that I'll stay with you for a week and do anything you want. Why won't you kiss me?" The engineer said, "Look I'm an engineer. I don't have time for a girlfriend, but a talking frog, now that's cool."



Delts vs. Pikes tonight...

who am i going to root for? probably pikes, seeing as how Pinky is the only one i actually know playing for the delts...

yay 'rango!

i love this shirt...too bad it isn't mine~


I had fun this weekend. did you?

i love pet names. whats your favorite?

i got asked about the infamous JB yesterday. I haven't seen him since last year. i dont know what i'd do if i saw him today...


i love these songs

"(Can't Get My) Head Around You"
Deep inside your soul there's a hole you don't wanna see
Every single day what you say makes no sense to me
Even though I try I can't get my head around you
Somewhere in the night there's a light in front of me
Heaven up above with a shove, abandons me
Even though I try I fall in the river of you
You've managed to bring me down too
All you're faking (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Shows you're aching (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Every single day what you say makes no sense to me
Lettin' you inside, isn't right, don't mess with me
I never really know what's really going on inside you
I can't get my head around you
All you're feeding (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Shows you're bleeding (Get Up, Get Up, Get Up)
Deep inside your soul there's a hole you don't wanna see
Covering it up like a cut with the likes of me
You know I've really tried, I can't do anymore about you
(Yeaaahh)The cut's getting deeper
(Yeaaahh)The hill's getting steeper
(Yeaaahh)I guess I'll never know what's really going on inside you
I can't get my head around you
I can't get my head around you
I can't get my head around you
I can't get my head around you

"Never Gonna Find Me"
On a mission started by my own admission,
I will leave you all behind.
By direction I'll create my own protection,
the real me you'll never find.
Aspirations turn to fear and desperation,
Nothing's ever good enough for you,
Burn in sorrow 'cause I see there's no tomorrow,
You'll only seeing what I want you to
Never gonna find me,
Never gonna find me,
Well, way down deep inside there is the real me,
I'm always gonna hide and this is who you'll see.
Never gonna find me,
Never gonna find me,
Well, way down deep inside they haven't found me yet,
I'm always gonna hide and this is who you'll get.
On a mission to establish my attrition
you may think that you have won.
Your rejection has bought on my introspection,
I'll escape I'll only run.
Accusations may destroy my motivation
I can feel it when you're pushing me.
Burn in sorrow 'cause I see there's no tomorrow,
Only I know which me you'll see.
Never gonna find me,
Never gonna find me,
Well, way down deep inside there is the real me,
I'm always gonna hide and this is who you'll see.
Never gonna find me,
Never gonna find me,
Well, way down deep inside they haven't found me yet,
I'm always gonna hide and this is who you'll get.
Break away.
Down inside.
I've got to push it away.
I did not choose this.
God Dammit!
I don't really know,
what I wanna say,
I can't afford the throw,
can't make it go away now.
Try to make it through,
fuck your decision,
I can feel myself but I'm burning up now.
Whaooh oooh (never gonna find me)
Whaooh Whaooh (never gonna find me)
Whaooh Whaooh (never gonna)
Whaooh Whaooh
Whaooh Whaooh
Whaooh Whaooh


am i good or what? i predicted that my econ test would take me between 23 and 27 minutes. I took it in exactly 25. haha, thats awesome, i am very proud of myself, now just as long as i do a decent job on it...:(


I could swear my econ teacher just said booty...


wow...my mommy's really mad at me. I don't mean to use my phone soo much. it just kind of happens.

seems i used 610 primetime minutes last month. we only have 500 anytime minutes. oops...

well i have my own plan now

uh-oh...don't be mad at me, it was an accident, really!


so maybe i'm not so pissed anymore...

new friends are awesome. very awesome.

here's to interesting experiences!!

hey im going to open the team blog to new members. anyone (hopefully someone) who wants to be a part, leave me a comment or email me and i'll get you set up


i'll admit it, i'm PISSED OFF.

you knew the circumstances when you got involved...

i don't trust myself to talk to you in person or on the phone, you won't respond to my IM's, and apparently you aren't going to respond to my emails either.

ALL that stuff you said hurt, a lot... and now i just don't know what, if anything, to do.

if you can't be my friend anymore thats your decision, if you can thats all great.

No matter what things will be different now. They've changed. And there's nothing that can change that.

let me know if you when you want your chem book back. i guess i'll just give it back to you whenever i see you, unless you let me know otherwise...


Fourth week has started.
I've already failed one calc test
-well technically i got a 72 on it, but i consider that since before it was curved i got a 27/60 i FAILED.

Oh well.
Gotta go do extra credit on saturday
-im going to be a greeter for "Discover Kettering"
...hey i'll take my extra credit any way i can get it...well almost ;)

cribs save lives.
-well mine at least...


I think Jason (from work) is coming up to see Scott this weekend. Hopefully he'll want to see me too. Manda's coming up tomorrow too...should be interesting. i'm boring, i know. And since I am talking to myself i'd rather take a nap...

i love you all...except for you and you and you


hi everyone...so yah, second week is now officially over.  Yay for that!

no all in all though college is pretty awesome, i'm definitely enjoying myself...well for the part. 

My birthday is on monday, i'll finally be legal!  just kidding, i will be 18 though!


its been a long weekend...
anyhoo, how is everyone? Kettering is awesome by the way!  gotta love it...
things are definitely interesting up here...


Good girls loosen a few buttons when it's hot. Bad girls make it hot by loosening a few buttons.

Good girls only own one credit card and rarely use it. Bad girls only own one bra and rarely use it.

Good girls wax their floors. Bad girls wax their bikini lines.

Good girls blush during love scenes in a movie. Bad girls know they could do it better.

Good girls think they're not fully dressed without a strand of pearls. Bad girls think they're fully dressed with just a strand of pearls.

Good girls wear high heels to work. Bad girls wear high heels to bed.

Good girls say, "Don't... Stop..." Bad girls say, "Don't Stop..."


not good not good not good

oh well i can deal with it...

*new acroymns added today*


so yah...i moved into kettering today, fun fun fun...

it wasn't too bad...i just had to change rooms since they accidently paired me up with a boy...i need some caffine.

Kyle's up here...yay...i think i need to call BJ

Scott, i can't wait until you get up here!

Jason? are you coming up? have fun at work

who says i have to many guy friends?


ok we're going to start a new thing...even if it is just for me since i seem to be talking to myself lately...

FORD is rubbing off on me...
so now i'm going to come up with own acronyms
wow...i'm bored...very bored to be exact

Scott if you're reading this, and i know you are, have fun in cancun!

work sucks.

school starts next thursday...who's coming to visit me?


so it's been three weeks of work. one more and then school starts. busy busy busy. or more like bored bored bored. We're heading off to caseville for the weekend... yay...

things are interesting right now...

does anyone know whats going on?


tomorrow is my open house...should be fun, i hope

so i made a new friend at work this week. He's going to be a Senior III this year...

i know you told me not to tell anyone, but how can i keep this to myself? if i'm handling it this badly, what's going to happen to you??? i'm so sorry...

i don't know whats going on anymore, it's all getting out of control. However, i can't get it back under control without hurting a few people...and i don't want that to happen...


you know my story
i've been telling it to anyone i can find
if i would lose you, i'd lose my mind
over and over again until next time


it over, done, finished, FOREVER...

and not just for the seniors this time

OSMTech is going to be permanently closed after the conclusion of the school year.

I found this out in a letter from Oakland Schools that i received yesterday...yah they're reallll sorry...

Hopefully we can figure out where all the teachers have gone so that we can find them next year...


i get to retake my drug test today...

then tomorrow i get to go to orientation for my co-op job...*actually turns out that it was next tuesday...im such a loser*

i start next tuesday...that'll be fun...actually at least i'll have money then,cuz i'm broke now...

damn headache...

i love you and you and you

ps- this is stash, isn't he weird?



only five more days of OTC, that i am required to attend, and about 8-9 days of LO...thank god for that!!

i went to go see Troy last night...it was pretty kool...and now i can get my extra credit for English, which might i add, i really really need!

Its a sign! it's ironic that i just happened to flip through race cars (drag racing) and baseball (Tigers) while he was over... wish i knew what that meant!

tonight is the senior-send-off at OSMTech...we're having it at Oakland Schools...damn them...lol...

guess this means i shoud start my stats project!


yah so Bret's not here today...although i'm not sure if that's unfortunately or not...i think so though...blah blah blah...i'm rambling...oh yah and unless you guys are a certain person or two who-shall-not-be-named then you don't have to worry about the capitalization thing...lol ok?

i love everyone, except for some of you!


so yah, i'm in oracle class.

hey have you ever been mad at someone, so you refer to them in lowercase letters because you feel they aren't a person/proper noun so they don't deserve it?

thats my passive-agressive way of revenge. except i also out of habit 'forget' to use capitals most of the time...so only certain people know if it is an accident or on purpose...

i love being passive-aggressive

i love you all, except for you and you and you...just kidding


whats that you say? time for another random question? maybe someone will answer this one this time...

"if penguins say 'penguin' then why doesn't Kurt say 'kurt'?"

stupid i know...

but yah so i'm in MOUS (Microsoft Office User Specialist) and i'm 'learning' powerpoint, hah...! i'm hyper, and tired..and caffinated!

i love you,
.. well some of you...


today i had my ford interview...it went awesome to say the least

damn this headache though!

but anyway, we were going to get to ride in Bret's fairlane tomorrow, but its actually and OTC day and they're still going to LO, so i don't get to any more, but hey i'll live!

why did they have to put the enter key next to the apostrophe? i always hit the wrong one...damn

anyhoo its time for random questions o' the day!

"if you could be any type of automobile, what type would you be? BE SPECIFIC!!" -borrowed from Kyle

i would like to be a f-250 superduty XLT...cuz then i'd be awesome!

what about you? email me or comment or something...just let me know


you know you want me baby
you know I want you too
they call me superman
I'm here to rescue you


Eh, caseville was fun. Oh by the way, i think that i have gone insane. I'm in 10 dances in the spring show. here's a list:
1. My Tap Group
2. Casey's Tap Group/Trio
3. Tap Trio with Amy and Leanne
4. Tap Solo
5. Lyndsey's Modern
6. Senior Dance
7. James Bond
8. 6-8 Clinic
9. Prom Fashion Show dance
10. Mine and Lyndsey's BBall game dance

i think thats it...god i sure hope so! so yah, you people's should go...i'd say we could all hang out afterwards, but i've gotta take Stash out for his birthday(the day before). He's gonna be 20 next wednesday...damn he's old! oh well wish me luck and i hope to see you there!

love ya


well turns out I might be getting a job...hopefully...cuz I sure need one, i'm tired of being broke all the time. Spring Break starts tomorrow, too bad the only place i'm going is Caseville (and only for about 2.5 days). but anyway, certain people, they know who they are, better call me over break...ok? ALL OF YOU!!! lol well yah cya later

love you,


so much to do, so little time to do it in...ahhh the joys of being a high school senior!


so yah, i've decided its time to update. i need new song lyrics too. tap tap tap the day away. well for me at least! my dances are gonna be awesome! gotta make up that calc test on monday, and hopefully i'll do better on the bio test part eleventy-million than on the others! study study study. blah...can you tell i'm bored *winkwink*

i have 25 how many do you? (oh you know what i mean)


so tonite was the last game of the season and so the last game that the seniors would dance at ever! only a few more performances left! anyway yah so i was kinda sad tonite because of that...i could really use a hug! i only get to see stash about two or maybe doubtfully three times in the next two weeks...he blew me off for tomorrow, so only friday, mayeb sunday, and maybe a day next week...*sigh*...good thing my other guy friends actually want to hang out with me...

on a different note, my wisdom teeth come out next thursday at 9:45 am...uhoh...im nervous...and i teensy bit scared! He was telling me all the things that could go wrong...ehheheheeehehe....lol come visit/call/come over afterwards? i miss all you guys!



so yah....

game tuesday...its the last one...EVER...well for me at least....so if you really love me, you'd come...heh

competition saturday....im worried...especially since we go right before holly in pom..uh-oh...


i go see the oral surgeon on tuesday...yay...get to get these darn wisdom teeth out...come visit me after the surgery? i'll let you know before it happens!


Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)

What Emotion Dominates you?
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hey so yah i have to get my wisdom teeth out. thank god for that! they were driving me insane! wow i can't type...i've been on a survey trek...you probably received a few from me by now. please fill them out? so i went to kettering yesterday, didn't get to see kyle, but maybe next time! i signed up for bith job fairs so hopely i'll get a job before may! i think kp was supposed to be there yesterday..hmmm oh well! hey wanna go skiing on thursday?


If I had a perfect day...
I would have it start this way
Open up the fridge and have a tall boy

Then I'd meet up with my friends
Head out to the game again
We don't even really care who wins
hey wins hey 1-2-3

Now excitement seems to grow
When we're hangin' with the bro's
When we're chillin' and we pound a case of Stroh's
Now the game is cool to see
You can "High 5" on TV
Count the riot on the one two three
Operation is in sight
And the field is open wide
When you break it then you know you're still alive
If the cops don't make you pay
And you make your getaway
Then you know
That's one fine day

On that day before we're through
We could torch a car or two
Then have ourselves another tall boy

Water hoses and batons
That's the real game that's on
I don't really give a shit who wins
hey wins hey 1-2-3

Now excitement seems to grow
When we're hangin' with the bro's
When we're chillin' and we pound a case of Stroh's
Now the game is cool to see
You can "High 5" on TV
Count the riot on the one two three
Operation is in sight
And the field is open wide
When you break it then you know you're still alive
If the cops don't make you pay
And you make your getaway
Then you know
That's one fine day

I believe it's my god-given right
To destroy everything in my sight
Cause it never gets dull, it never gets old
The only thing it gets is more bold
Drinkin', fightin', going to the game
In our world it's a way to stay sane
If you're asking me
To have it my way, I'd say that's
One fine day

Now excitement seems to grow
When we're hangin' with the bro's
When we're chillin' and we pound a case of Stroh's
Now the game is cool to see
You can "High 5" on TV
Count the riot on the one two three
Operation is in sight
And the field is open wide
When you break it then you know you're still alive
If the cops don't make you pay
And you make your getaway
Then you know
That's one fine day


what an uh interesting week...


i think i'm speechless

college could rock...(like it's supposed to!)


i don't even want to think about it!

wish me luck with giving blood at otc on thursday! any bets on if i'll pass out during dance? any takers? any?


this week officially sucks...very very very very much....only 4 months 23 days until we're done!!!


is flirting with him that bad i mean so he has a girlfriend and i have a boyfriend (of two years) its just some flirting on the bus kp you know who he is...i mean some others of you probably do too...i've thought he was kinda cute since 10th grade....teehee...im a good girl...really!


why be part of something where you don't even feel like you're a part of it. life sucks and then sooner or later you die...


i'm tired...tired of being the only non-competitive senior...of dancing only because i made a commitment, not because it's fun
i'm tired of pretending...pretending to be people's friends...or that they're friends with me...that everything is fine, even when it never is...that i'm happy...that i'm not depressed, or even that i never was.
i'm tired of...being pitied...being felt sorry for...being me...being an underachiever trying to overachieve...putting stress on myself until i crack from it...it all!
all i want is to get out...to graduate from high school...go to college...and get a nice job and marry someone i love...i want to leave the my pathetic excuse for a high school life behind...with only a few exceptions...to my real friends, i hope i can stay in touch and always remember you...to my pretend friends, i'll quit pretending.
don't worry...there is nothing to worry about...i'm fine...i always am...aren't i? no need to get upset or concerned about me...cuz nothing is ever wrong...ever. . .


guess what? its monster truck time! yes thats right, an all day adventure with giant trucks. never thought i'd be excited about that huh? well, i am! now all i got to do is go to saturday dance practice (ugh) and then we're off!

love me? cuz i sure love you!


its a crazy time of year. good news though i planned my graduation party...only 6months and 4 days before it starts....thank god im a senior and am about to graduate! well i should go back to avoiding the call from my biology book! love me? well i love you...